2 Years and Counting...

Well, today marks 2 years that Daniel and I have been trying to have a child and we are still counting the months.  Another unsuccessful month leaves me a little disappointed but again looking forward to another cycle and hopeful for what it might bring.  This journey is tiring and frustrating at times. Sometimes I am ready to give up but down deep I am not ready to give up on the desire to be a mother.  I find myself wishing my body would respond normally but I have to remember God has a plan for me and will work everything for His good. I know that God has His reasons for allowing me to experience this trial. Nothing that happens in my life is a surprise to God.  Dealing with infertility and other health issues has already strengthen my relationship with the Lord. 

A friend of mine (that God just recently brought into my life and I am so thankful for her) gave me a book to read that helped her through her journey with infertility... "Hannah's Hope" by Jennifer Saake." 

"Hannah’s Hope offers insightful and heartfelt encouragement for couples dealing with infertility, miscarriage or failed adoption. Building on the story of Hannah (First Samuel, chapter 1), Jennifer Saake interweaves her personal experiences with advice gleaned from over ten years of providing aid to grieving families through the support network she co-founded with husband Rick, Hannah’s Prayer Ministries. While remaining true to the very real and anguishing emotions of longing for a child, Jenni continually directs her readers back to the comfort and strength of a compassionate God. Each chapter concludes with a special “Burden Bearers” section offering practical suggestions for pastors, family members and friends."

**The above description is taken from the book's website... http://www.hannahshopebook.com/index.html**

I have been reading it lately and it has really helped me cope with some issues I have been faced with.  I would suggest "Hannah's Hope" to anyone who is struggling with infertility.  One quote from the book that I am recalling today is "God perfectly orchestrates the necessary timing for each new life to fulfill the plans He ordains."  God knows the exact time (the perfect time) that He will give Daniel and I a baby. I have to keep trusting in His ways even though I don't understand them because His ways are perfect. God knows me better than I know myself.  He holds my future in His hands. 

The same friend who gave me the book also told me about a bracelet that she wore during her journey.  On this bracelet are the words... "With God, All Things are Possible."

I now have one.  I wear it all the time as a reminder that God knows my desires and is with me always.  He will never leave me or forsake me.  Its also a reminder that I have hope with God.  When times are tough and I am losing hope, I look down at the bracelet and remember that God is in control and I have hope because of Him and His love for me. He knows my every need, want, and concern. And knowing all of this gives me the courage and strength to keep going. I have to always put my faith and trust in Him!

"When times are good, be happy; but when times are bad, consider: God has made the one as well as the other." Ecclesiastes 7:14

I am determined to remain positive and wait on God.  I will worship and praise God while I wait... In the midst of the storm, I will trust Him!

With God, All Things are Possible