Wednesday started out as just a simple day of going to town to run errands and go to my Dermatology appointment. I had mention to my sister-in-law that I need to get a pregnancy test at the store while we were in town because I was a week and half late. I was trying to not make a big deal about it and get my hopes up again. However I have never been this late before.
After the dermatology appointment, my sister-in-law suggested I go next door to my Gynecologist's office and just get a test from there instead of buying one at the store. After some convincing, I went and the test was NEGATIVE. (Go Figure!) The nurse said that I could TALK to the doctor so I ended up getting to see my doctor with out an appointment. I guess they could tell I was a little upset. After showing my doctor my BBT chart and log of my last 19 cycles, he concluded that I am not ovulating like I need to. I was told that to correct that problem I would need to take clomid or metformin. He also did a blood test and I am still waiting on those results.
So Wednesday I got way more that I signed up for. I went for a yes or no and came out with a blood test and possible medication!!! So, I am just a little overwhelmed with all of this and never expected them to want to start anything so fast. I just wanted some answers to my questions.
However, my naturopatic doctor doesn't agree with the medication and taking that route right now. She says I still need more time... to WAIT. My Aunt who has advised me to go the natural route with my health and life in general says... to WAIT. Daniel thinks I need more time to get healthy and that we should give it more time... to WAIT. A few more people I have talked to said to give it a little more time... to WAIT. There is one common theme here: WAIT.
The answer for which direction to take is to simply WAIT. I am becoming to hate the words NEGATIVE and WAIT. I am not happy about that answer; it's not the one I want. But, I have come to realize through prayer, advice from those who love me and my daily Bible study, its the best thing to do right now.
In the Bible Study "A Heart Like His" Beth Moore says, “ You may be going through a confusing time right now. You may not know how God is going to use a situation in your life or why certain things have happened to you. But you can be encouraged and strengthened by recalling what you know about God in the midst of uncertainties. In confusing times, recounting what we do know refreshes us. You may never know why or how, but you can always know Who is faithful.”
I know God will work all of this for good and that He has an amazing plan for Daniel and I more than likely one better that I have for us. He is faithful and will provide.
Waiting is not my best quality. This time has been and will be difficult but I am choosing to cling to what I know about the One who is faithful!
I just found your blog today and cannot believe how much we have in common. I too have fertility problems. And have taken mutiple rounds of Clomid and Metaformin....resulting in no ovulation. I have Severe Endometriosis and PCOS and have had a total of 6 surgeries for each. My heart just sank as I sat here and read through your blog and all that you are going through. Please know that you are not alone! Even though I may not know you, I do know what you are going through and my husband does understand what your husband is going through. We are right there with you in the "waiting" game. We have been married for about a year and a half and have actively been trying to get pregnant since Day One! We want children that badly! I actually have that song "Waiting On You Lord" playing on my playlist on our blog. It is a perfect song for what we are going through. Let me just encourage you to draw strength from the Lord and from each other and to trust that His will is perfect! He knows the deepest desires of our hearts and He will bless us with a love of our child that will be far deeper than we could ever imagine! Just like He did when He blessed us with our husband! We will have our little ones soon enough! Waiting is the hardest thing in the world to do, I do believe. But, my husband and I have prayerfully commited to serve Him and honor Him even while we wait!
ReplyDeleteI'd love to talk to you more about your conditions, meds, etc. Maybe compare notes...
Praying for You,
Amy in GA
amyrbrooker@hotmail.com
www.asouthernlove.blogspot.com
www.findingjoythroughmyjourney.blogspot.com
Thank you so much for commenting! I have found so much encouragement by starting to blog about my struggles instead of hiding them. I have come across so many women who are struggling the same things and who are lifting up their struggles to the Lord. What a blessing! I promise I will contact you soon! Thank you again.
ReplyDeletePraying for you! Looking forward to talking with you soon! We all have our crosses to bear, just remember that! No one is perfect and don't surround yourself with people who think that they are! We just have to keep the faith and stay strong and remember to pray, pray, pray! Your testimony is a blessing! Always remember that! :)
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