A Work Only God Could Do

Last Tuesday while attending my Doctor's appointment I was able to see to the work that God has been doing in my life over the past couple of months.  Dr. Morgan was discussing some options to naturally boost my fertility with Daniel and I after reviewing some of my ovulation charts. She told us about some supplements and herbs that I can take to help support my reproductive organs if I was ready.  My response was… “I can’t believe I am saying this but I would like to wait until after the first of the year to do that. I think I need a little more time for my health to improve.  My reasoning is that I don’t want to jump ahead of God and right now if we try any supplements, herbs or fertility treatments I feel we would be doing that." She totally agreed with me!  God is still wanting us to wait! I am not sure why but I just having the feeling that we need to wait. 2 or 3 months ago, I would have jump at every opportunity if I knew there was a better chance for a pregnancy.  Over the past few months, I have not been so focused on getting pregnant and why its not  happening after over a year and half of trying. I know that its because of God and trying to keep Him the center of my life.  Through daily Bible study and prayer, I am focusing my life on the Lord and His ways.  This new attitude is all from God... not me.  I tried on my own and failed but with God I am succeeding in not letting the lacking of pregnancy and infertility worry me.  I am by no means saying that I don't think about it or still wish for a baby but it doesn't consume me like it use to.  I still have my moments when I cry and get upset  but I have been happier and easier to be around lately.  Also, I have been able to receive news about other people expecting and it does not put me in a state of depression.  I am handling the whole situation better and it is because of GOD and I PRAISE Him for it!  Thank you LORD!